Winter break Week 1

Horaaaa~

My first winter break yayyyyyyy!!! Yep holidays..always so exciting...but seriously~ I wasted a week doing nothing but lazing around with my roomie. I know I'm abroad now..LA is just 30 minutes away~bla~bla~bla should've go somewhere... *sigh* Okay~ I'll do better on week 2! I promise..may be..

Apart from eating, sleeping, waking up at noon, sleepover at Ezekiel's watching movies, hibernating, reading novels, skyping with my mom, watching Tentang Dhia and some Koreans drama, ARASHI... yeah..besides all that.

I went to THE CHEESECAKE FACTORY! I almost say no..thank god my roomie was so persistent on dragging me to go!

Be jealous everybodyyyyyy!LOL

Friends

My roomie and I 

Ezekiel-me (I look freaking chubby!i swear i do not look that chubby in real life)-roomie 

cr: cellen's fb and her awesome camera :)

Cheesecake Factory is like the Secret Recipe only a 100 times better.Huuuuu~

and oh, we did help Ezekiel decorating his Christmas tree..its a real pine tree okay..it smells so good too!!

Taaaraaa~

I think that's all for now! Take care you guys :)

Okay.i just randomly inserting this pic!heee~

i hope u miss me...

I know I haven't been updating in awhile.

"real life really gets in the way..." is just an excuse for not blogging. I don't even know why I can't seems to write anything, though I didn't went on blogger, reading people's updates from time to time...

Sometimes, I felt like I'm not me anymore..and its scaring me cause I don't wanna lose myself..

or rather I'm not ready for changes..but here, change is inevitable.

Honestly, deep down I'm still....a girl who has the lowest self esteem..who hate taking photos, who's socially awkward, who love to do things on her own...spend most of her time fangirling and watching dramas..and hardly felt comfortable being with people..

Most of the time, attention that people gave intimidate me in a way.. I forced a smile and act like nothings happened when actually I felt timid inside and lots of things running through my head.. I usually felt like that every time boys goes "can I take a picture with you?" and the moment those pictures were uploaded on facebook, I would actually avoid looking at them. *sigh* I'm not even pretty and I took bad photos. T-T and I don't do make up and I'm not even trying to look good..cause I am me..a nobody.

I just like being unnoticed and talk with only a few people cause frankly, I'm not a girl that socialize a lot. I tried ok, to talk more and open up to people... often time when people talked to me, I found myself back to being quiet..I just lost my words. I do get comfortable with few people (usually those people are the people that I can naturally say hi and casually talk to ..like my roomie and people that I went to class with). I like being friends with girls compared to boys..cause I did spend  the last three years mostly with girls. Girl besties, girl cousins,fangirls..I'm not gay or anything but yeah~ I love girls out! and boys.. I did found a few boys that I really can be comfortable with here.

I know I didn't even make any sense but I just feel like ranting right now and I need to stop writing and get back to my Genetics textbook!

I will leave you guys with Nino's new picture and oh he cut his hairrrrrrr!AND I FREAKING LOVE IT!

iro iro

if you don't know what iro iro mean, ask mr google ok? :)

Hi! I'm keeping the blog a.k.a gonna continue spamming your dashboard with craps. Deal with it okies? Heee.. I thought about it throughly though. Soon (as in less than 3 weeks from now) I'm gonna have a life. (finally!*cries*) REAL LIFE! I'm going to resume my study on September..there goes my potato couching days.uwaa... I'm gonna be really busy... adapting to new surrounding, dealing with jet leg, cramming my brains with knowledge, making new friends, trying to fit in..well you get the picture..In near future, I highly doubt that I can update as much anymore..no point of opening a new site if I'm gonna abandon it later on, right?

Enough with that, I've been watching lots of dramas lately, to kill boredom, I must say. Been following three on going Jdramas this season Ikemen Desu Ne, Soredemo Ikite Yuku and Zenkai Girl. Here's my quick thoughts on each.

Ikemen Desu Ne

Looking forward for Jang Geun Seuk cameo on Ikemen Desu Ne. Tae Kyung meet Ren!~ Kyaaaa..how epic is that? 

Zenkai Girl

Yappari ne~ its a very typical Jdoramas, ending are obviously predictable..but here's my reason for watching Gakky + Ryo Nishikido + two adorable kids = I'M SOLD. Enuf said. Plus, cause I'm loving the ending song, Tsubusa ni koi :)

Soredemo Ikite Yuku

THE.DRAMA.OF.THE.SEASON! You don't wanna miss! or wait you can miss this..it depends~ on your cup of tea..i mean everyone has their own preferences. But if you are looking for a great jdoramas..GREAT in terms of storyline, scripts and acting..THIS IS A DRAMA FOR YOU. If I don't sounds convincing, you can google this drama reviews and I can assure you, there isn't even one bad review for this drama~ (note: I love Eita so much that I end up watching almost all of his dramas.. Eita is a perfect man, minus his frizzy bad hair that appears from time to time. LOL ) Btw, if you're interested,you can download it at mediumquality(dot)blogspot(dot)com.

It's late and I'm getting sleepy. NITE!^^

girls and soccer!

CONGRATS JAPAN!

Japan's #nadeshiko team fucking won FIFA Women's World Cup 2011 *cries* I'm so proud of them. Like seriously, they were shorter and smaller than US girls team ,in the beginning of the game though I'm rooting for them, I'm still having doubts..I don't even know how they gonna win against USA team but fuck yeah~ they won! You guys should've seen the game last night, it was intense, I barely even watched..kowaii desu ne~ (kowaii means scary~) Ok, I lied a bit, I barely even watched cause I got distracted, I was on twitter.hehe) About twitter, some people were being amazing shallow last night, 'Japs' and 'Pearl Harbor' was on trending topics...Right~ bringing all those up over a soccer match? VERY CLASSY OF YOU PEOPLE #sarcasm. Plus, people were making fun Japanese players name..like Ohno, Ando..Rude much??? *sigh*

Back to the game, I swear US had like 274872348925739 shots on winning the game but they couldn't finished it. I don't think it's merely luck on Japanese side, they played well last night, very technical team, they were very controlled and yeah~ passing the ball... heck, I honestly don't know anything about soccer. I never even care about soccer. This is my first time staying up all night watching a soccer match. There, I've said it! 

I'm only watching to cheer for Japan, after all the that happened in Japan, I really think Nadeshiko team need to win this..them winning world cup would be a great morale boost for the country!

And I sorta know, Homare Sawa from vs Arashi. She's cool, strong and kinda leave a big impression in me but last night game..goddammit ~ she really is a HBIC! (head bitch in charge) ! I felt like crying so much..told ya I'm not so much of a soccer fan, I have no control over my emotions. I ditched the game and went to bed when US scored 2, Japan 1. I was like, if Japan lose, I'll be really devastated (while crying in bed like a loser). Soccer game is not meant for a crybaby like me ;___; . I really thought Japan will lose.Looking back, I should've at least have a little faith in those awesome Japanese girls soccer players. When I woke up today,went on twitter...and there's a 'CONGRATS JAPAN' on trending topic. I almost had a heart attack, THEY WON. THEY FUCKING WON. SAWA SAVES THE DAY! SAWA WON GOLDEN BOOT, MVP PLAYER, TOP SCORER OF THE TOURNAMENT! SAWA SAN, YOU'RE INSPIRATIONAL! NADESHIKO TEAM NO MINNA SAN, OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU!!

"We won because we never stopped fighting until the end. This has been my goal and now we can take home the gold trophy." Homare Sawa-

Read more: http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,2083703,00.html#ixzz1SRZp4i

Sawa san on vs arashi :)

HOMARE SAWA IS MY NEW HERO!!chyeaaaa~

I think I'm in love with his band mate

I love Nino so much..I really do but not to the extend of being delusional or actually thinking of marrying him. Oh please~I'm not 14 anymore.duhhhhh~ I'm a young and (almost) a mature lady now *cough* but seriously~ I know my boundaries. I'm not a delusional-crazy-screaming fangirl anymore, I'm just a crazy-screaming fangirl but not so delusional?Huuuu Whatevs~

Point is, I still love Nino but (ohhh~ here comes the twist) I think I'm in love with Jun kun. ♡

JUN, AS IN, MATSUMOTO JUN !

KYAAAAAA~ I KNOW RIGHT!!!! and that picture is illegal, I got it from tumblr, credits on pic.

I really CAN'T explain myself right now.

Jun kun? Jun nii? Jun chan? Matsujun? Matsumoto san? Junnosuke? LOL. I don't even know what to call him yet~ *still deliberating*

this from AniShi, arashi musical training ep, which I died watching :P

Btw,I'm listening to Arashi 'Rock This'..while typing this down, the 'are we gonna rock this' part..sounds more like 'are we gonna lock this'HAHAＯ(≧∇≦)Ｏ sorry boys for mocking your enunciation. can't help it though. Lock on, I mean Rock on! *brb.laughing*

Have a locking day people! (oh god.stop it Farhana..you're being sucha bad fan~)

LOL. 

mak hayam. LOLOLOL XDD

My sister and I are forever fans of miaknamaoon blog . He's witty and his blog is hilarious (if only you can speak, read & understand bahasa srwk.) We always have a good laugh while reading his blog. ALWAYS OK! You know how when you read something, you'll naturally picked up some words along the way right? one that stucked with us was 'mak hayam'. (is actually nickname that oon gave to one of his lecturer) but Farah and I are weirdly blurting out that word on daily basis. Calling every middle age bad women on tv 'mak hayam' and then laughing our ass off. Yes, we are weird like that. love laughing at our on jokes though I don't think surrounding people will ever get us.hahahaha. And then, every bad girl/boy who look younger we'll call him or her 'anak hayam' and start LOLOLOLOLOL-ing like crazy.It became uncontrollable and too random sometimes~ just anyone on tv, at any channel, any random shows, CSI, The Biggest Loser, malay dramas on Citra.. there's always someone that we think worth calling mak/anak hayam. Gosh, of course we didn't mean it bad way, it just...one of our weird way to joke..cause ya, we can be slightly dysfunctional at times :P 

Exhibit A *watching The Biggest Loser Australia*

Farah : (moment when Sam appears on our tv screen) blah..blah..blah..blah..anak hayam..blah..blah

Me : Puahahahaha XDDD

Farah: Puahahahaahah XDD

Me: hahaha~ don't call him that, he's nice...

Me and Farah : Puahahahahaahahah XDDD

random.I know. LOL. I won't even bother asking you guys 'get it?' 'get it?' cause I know no one will get us. And sometimes, we start calling each other mak hayam and  randomly adding 'kedayan' accent while we speak..words like : 'bana bana' 'miyah'~for the record, lots of weird terms are already ended up as our daily bad jokes. 

Don't know why I'm writing this though. HAHA. Have a good day peeps!

P/S: I'm loving 2PM's new album. Junho is so smexyyyy, suddenly he's relevant to me again :P

freaking out Khun is cute!
my fav gif ever.
not claiming it as mine

this is my confessions Part 1

I'm bored, still waiting for my download to finish. 

So, hi peeps! this is just another random post from me.hehe X) 

#gonna find my Seth Tan someday ;P

I've got to admit, I'm watching Nora Elena not because of the storyline or the hype on twitter..it was cause I fall in love with Aaron's character, Seth Tan. I love how he cancel everything just for Elena. I love how he never once lose his temper no matter how bitchy his wife can be sometimes. I love how he always speak in his lowest voice with Elena. (ok,I'm weird.) I love all Seth's romantic stunts, buying flowers, ordering room service.etc. Seth can be extremely cheesy at times, but I still like him so much. Sounds lame~ I know, but I like romantic guy who can pull of romantic stunt and not feeling ashamed about it. Though I know, in my right mind, guy like Seth didn't really exist in real life but still.... dear future boyfriend, if you at least posses a little of Seth's character,I would be more than happy to be your great future girlfriend :)

#I vote for Sepah

Like voting,voting. I don't know, honestly, I never care to spend my money voting for some guys I saw on TV.. twas different with Sepah. I like them so much, so I don't mind spending my RM2 for their comedy that I enjoyed so much. I had no ideas how many people are willing to vote but them, but at least, they secure four votes from me weekly. Plus, I'm all set to vote for them at the finale too. hahaha :D I wanna meet Sepah in real life,take a memorable picture and told Mamat I like him so much even for being the least funny dude among the three of them! 

(omg, farhana.Just how lame can chuuu be...!/sigh)

OTTOKE????

it's secret time...my rambling post.

Hi guys! ohayou~

My post had nothing to do with the title though. haha. I just randomly picked a title. tbh, I dislike Secret, (yes, Secret.that Kpop group) its nauseating owkey (at least) for me, watching them doing 4 years old cutesy dance on tv. Gosh, act your age girls not your shoe size!pffftttttt... But I mean it when I said rambling.This is a lengthy post owkey..!(not forcing you to read, you can ditch me now!...waittttt! or if you are too lazy to read, skip to the  paragraph after the picture spam,that is my only important point.LOL.but seriously~)

I'm gonna be spazzing like crazy here while having my freezing cold coffee from yesterday, cause that's how I roll! XD Yesterday, I was like watching ARASHI TRAINING CAMP and twas like the best Arashi documentary ever...Kyaaaaa~ I'm flailing so hard in front of my lappy. Thank god no one sees me nor coming to my room when I'm on my crazy fangirl mode. It'll be awkward if anyone ever see me losing my sanity over some Japanese dude on my lappy.haha X)

Arashi make everything they do look so fun and enjoyable. From the camp training, you'll know why Matsujun is the only cool guy in Arashi. Ohno Satoshi, when he said he's 30, I'm like...crap, no one will believe you,Oh chan~ NO ONE. the last time I asked my little brother, he thought you're 17. LOL. It's a camp training but all he did was goofing around and it look like he's been putting on some weight cause he's chubby cheeks is making a comeback!♥ Aiba Masaki. He's just cutely clumsy, the clumsiest being of them all. I don't know, he always tried to be cool but end up FAILING. Masaki, I love you, the way you are. Neen...he's just as talkative as ever, bratty as usual and forever messing around with Ohno. Not to mention, lazy as hell, he don't even run, he was walking when others were jogging. Bratty Neen! Lastly, Sho chan~ puahahahaha~twas so funny how Sho was the only who had to put on that camera on helmet thing cause they know they had to film his epic-terrified-of-height-face. Sho will never be able to overcome his fear of height. He was screaming 'kowaii~' the whole time. Sorry Sho chan, I know you were scared but it was so funny, I can't help it but to laugh. 

Picture spam. (credits on pictures, the one without credits is my own image capture!)

The boys were sleeping in a room together and its a rare moment. Unlike kpop groups who live in a dorm, Arashi live separately, either with their family or at their own house.

Jun birthday present for brat. A 'see through jacket'. Jun is indeed a fangirl ally!

Sho frantically laughing at brat's new jacket and Jun's shiny jacket. (which Arashi give it to Jun during his birthday back in 2009)

This is why some people called u 'hamster' , Sho chan. cause u look like one! haha

30 years old ojiisan! Ohno Satoshi desu!

Masaki!

Poor hamster ~ Jun was shacking the rope to scare him.meanie Jun!

See? the brat is just there..messing around with Ohno!

LOLOLOLOL XD the only person with helmet camera is Sho!

that 30 years old dude is goofing around..its training camp Ohno!

This camp documentary is such an insight into the growth and maturity of these boys over the last 12 years and a little about the work they do. But at the same time, it shows how they are still the grounded, goofy and fun-loving boys, whose friendship with one another is set in iron, and are still the boys we fell in love with.-credits:http://jazzinjuly.tumblr.com/-

Some people would never understand why I'm so into Arashi. All I can say they are not your  typical boy band group, and I know a lot of people said that too about their bias group, but seriously though.. I am a kpop fangirl for a long period of time, I'm very involve in fandom (and you know that), I will seriously learn about boys in groups that I like and I know when something is different. Arashi is different. You can say they look old, they can't sing like your oppa sing..whatever..you don't know them so stop being so judgmental when you don't know a thing.


I'm 21 and wiser, group like Arashi is magical. They don't came often. They are, once you get to know them,can be very inspiring. They inspired you to believe in your dreams, in achieving your dreams. Despite of being so popular, they remain humble. They are imperfect, I know how kpop groups are striving for perfection. I know how kpop fangirls are saying flawless to their oppa all the times. Arashi is not flawless, they are full of flaws. Nino and Ohno are short, Matsujun sounds nasal on high pitch, Aiba hardly dance in sync, Ohno is tanned all the time,Sho is scared of height, four of them don't have abs,they had bad haircuts from time to time..if I were to state full list of their's flaws, it will be a never ending list, though I just known them for 10 months, it's amazing how lot I've noticed. 


But on top of all that, if you think your oppa concert is amazing, try watching Arashi, witness yourself their level.I'm not trying to pick a fight here, I'm just stating the truth and tired of all these kpop fangirls bashing Arashi, not to mention saying them lame. THEY ARE NOT OK! If you ever watched their concert... you'll come to realize that their fans are not just screaming teenage fangirls (like chu and me~lol)..moms and dads bringing their kids, boys bring their girlfriends, ojiichan & obaachan (grandparents) ...people from all walks of life likes them too. Arashi is very likable, LIKE VERY VERY LIKABLE if you give them a chance :)


arigatou gozaimasu. for reading. 

way back in time..

FARAH, did you happen to remember these guys? Busted- Year 3000.It was always on MTV way back in 2002. Kyaaaaa~ this sure brings back memories huh?....I'm a fangirl for as long as I can remember, which makes me think fangirling is in our gene. My cousins are all fangirls..I bet once upon a time when my mom was young and single, she's a girl that squealed over a handsome dude too. Just like us now. HAHA XD Busted had pretty awesome songs like Sleeping with the lights on, What I go to school for, Crashed the wedding.... I don't even know how many of you ever heard of them..cause I don't think Busted was a big name, I mean only fans recognized them, they were not like BSB or Blue.whatever. Busted is one of the coolest band ever.Atleast, IMO :)

Anyway, the only time that I stopped being a fangirl was when I was too busy being someone's girlfriend/too busy dating/too busy replying boys texts, and ironically, I'm back in fandoms after I'm done with all that (we broke up)... teehee :) look like I'm not a multitasker after all..it can either be boys in real life or boys that I could never have in real life...It will never be both...only one at one time.. Which mean, someday, if I ever meet somebody to love, you'll see me ditching my fangirl life, (again)...pffffffttttt! like that ever gonna happen.

Ok, gotta go.mom will be back in less than an hour.

I'm still in bed bed

I need to bathe and do chores.

...

Mom's gonna kill me.

I'm fine..thank you and you..♥

About the previous post, I'm totally fine now :)
Part of it was my own fault for being over sensitive, huhu~
promise I'll be a better person in future! 


(끝...)


I'll be back for more..for now..
just sit back, relax and SMELL ! 
(haha :D I still can't get over Big Bang Secret Garden Parody!)

Daesung SMELL FTW!

HAVE A NICE DAY PEOPLE!^^
xo

about a boy that I love

Ninomiya Kazunari (Neen), my ichiban

I found this on tumblr and what she said about Neen is so true! I decided to share it here.. :)

Nino is a brat, a bitch, a nag, and a sexual powerhouse. He's been called so many things, and fans just embrace it all. He's a complicated person (bratty yet polite, talkative yet quiet, naggy yet sweet. He's just one big mindfuck.), always thinking (and deeply. He's kinda emo sometimes), he may seem like the loudest one on their shows, but in actuality, he's a very quiet person. He likes to be left alone.

Credits: aibajunior@lj and for more of Arashi PIMP post, 
(click me!) 

If you ask me why I like him, I don't know.like seriously. But I kinda like this jerk so much.He's not even tall, he's like 8cm taller than me, I'm 160cm (according to my passport, my most recent height.I guess) and Neen is 168cm  ahahaha XD 

Below, one of the most hilarious Ranking Derby ever. Oh, Kim Tae Hee was one of the guest on this Arashi show.

credits: neenjas.tumblr.com

cause true love exist...

Gosh. This dude was beyond awesome! He's a great guy!

I cried when he said "what kind of man would I be if I walked out when she needed me the most?"

His girlfriend was paralyzed after the accident, but his love towards her is unchangeable..

I can be lame too! :)

I just watched Anugerah Skin TV3..haha :D yknow..it's a rare occasion since I don't usually give a damn about Malaysian entertainment...( special thanks to those Korean and Japanese boys for taking my heart and soul ..thus, I stop paying attention to Malaysian boys..thank you very much!).. Now, gonna revealed what you didn't know about me...Well....I do spend lotsa times watching Malay dramas. Yes, Malay dramas and some Malay movies...and I kinda falling hard for that dude playing Adam in Adamaya. Sein. Ya..ya..ya..i know..He's old and married or used to be married..but I don't know, he's still attractive though...but oh.. sorry to his ex wifey cause I thank god when I heard they got divorced.errrk? YAY!! *throws confetti* I literally screams my lungs out when I saw him on TV just now.. the little reunion of Adamaya casts made my day. I'm so happy to see Maya, Adam and Mia together again...and OMG..Lisa Suriani look stunning tonight, I was rooting for her to win some award but it didn't happen *sigh* never mind Lisa, may be next time. Lisa is my fave too.. plus, Remy Ishak? he didn't attend the award show but he's among my fave Malay actor..don't ask me why cause I don't even know why...he don't have the 'look' but...in a very unexplainable way, he's attractive. :) eyhh..I love the little awkward moment when Shamsul Yusof won award and the one presenting the award is his very own ex gf who accused him of abusing her, Diana Danielle.. It was super awkward..glad, they broke up cause Shamsul and I had a chance...loljk :P In a nutshell, tonight was enjoyable watching the shows with my mom and YAY ! Khabir Bhatia won ! He's my fave director along with M Hitler Zami. In a nutshell part 2, you may think I do not pay attention to Malaysian entertainment a all but I do..............surprise..surprise :D xoxo 

*updating with pictures

Lisa & Mia

Dude-sorry-i-don't-your-name and Sein <3

p/s: this was a quick post. I didn't check grammar and stuff..don't be sucha grammar nazi..go easy on me prz :)